OMFG!!

To be honest I haven't really enjoyed this week as much as the previous ones. We are now definitely getting into the areas that I appear to not have the skills for.

So here's what we've had to use to achieve the individual activities this past week. 2 programmes; Animata and MaxMSP, soldering, and other manual things to do with a keyboard circuit board.

Here's my conclusion about all of those things:
I am terrible at programming!!! I was not good at using the animata programme at first but at least I'm getting a little, emphasize the word 'little' here, better at it.
MaxMSP, I don't understand a word of that.
Soldering wires to the circuit board, I can safely say I'm not good at. And if I do get that working I'll have to figure out what to attach it all to, with switches and other things, and how to put it in it's little box, where to drill the holes etc.

When you put all of those together any sane person can see that I have a very small chance of completing that activity in time, let alone getting it done well.
This is what I was really afraid of before I started this course. I really don't like it when bad thoughts come true. So I'm panicking a little now, and that just makes everything worse.

I have a horrible feeling that I'll be feeling even worse once this activity is due to be handed in.
Well you can always hope. Although I was thinking yesterday that maybe I shouldn't hope for the best, as the saying goes, because then I'll be even more disappointed, unhappy, depressed, upset, truly gutted etc, when it doesn't work out. So I'm not hoping for the best. But if I feel that way it might make it even harder to get the work done. In conclusion I now don't really know what I should be hoping for and I think I'm in for a bad weekend and another bad week.